Recently, I’ve been working on a new project. It kept me so busy that I hardly had time to update the blog or to do any activities with our little L. The project is only at the beginning but I can already tell that it will have a huge impact on my life, on our life as a family. It will be hard work. It will give me sleepless nights (it actually already does). And a lot of things to worry about. It will most probably drive me crazy from time to time as it will require me to work a lot – while taking care of little L. It will also be a huge change for Luca. And still: I couldn’t be more excited to share this project with you. I couldn’t be more excited to include this new project in my already quite busy schedule ;-)

Let me tell you about how it all began: A little bit before Luca turned one, I started thinking about working again. Not necessarily in a company, but rather starting a business on my own. I had long discussions with friends, we were brainstorming and there were great ideas coming out of that. I got really excited. It all sounded great. Starting a new business. From scratch. Making use of what I have learned about marketing, about communication and business strategy. Collaborating with interesting people. It all made sense. Luca would start to go to nursery some afternoons a week and we would most probably get a nanny (or granny – but that’s another story). I could also work at night, when Luca was asleep.

Then. Pause. Was it really the right time to do it? Luca would indeed need to be at the nursery or with a nanny/granny most of the time. How would I deal with not seeing Luca all of a sudden? How would he deal with it? What if little L became ill? It would also be a huge risk. Financially. There would be quite a huge pressure on me. Even though I would love it, it would not be easy. Would I be able to just forget about the business when I was spending time with little L? Would I be able to start a business on my own? Probably not. I would need partners. Oh, I had some great people in mind. But Dubai is unpredictable. Expats move. They don’t stay here forever. Finding a business partner who stands 100% behind this idea, who is willing to work hard and who is sure to stay in Dubai for some further years… not easy. It would also need to be the perfect match. In terms of personality, in terms of business competences. Well. It was not getting easier…

On the one hand, it all sounded so exciting and, for some time, I really thought I could make it work somehow. Deal with everything at the same time. Luca, the business. Everything. On the other hand, I had some serious doubts. I was not sure if I was ready to commit to such a huge new project. I really appreciate spending time with our little monkey. To be a full-time mum. I am really thankful to have the opportunity to see him grow up. The first years in a child’s life are the most important ones. They can actually have a huge impact on their whole life.

So, I decided not to do it. Not to start the business. Not to become a mumpreneur. Not for now. Not yet. It was not the right time.

Just when I came to this conclusion, something happened. Another new project was presented to me. One morning. Just like that. Another project that would be a lot of work as well. But just like that, I said yes. This time, I didn’t even think about the pros and cons. There were no doubts. I just knew that it was the best thing to do. For me. For our family. I just knew that we could make it work.

I’ve already been working on this project for some weeks now (well, it was not easy every day but I will come to that later) and I am quite pleased with the result so far. It just seems perfect to me. Already now. It was my little secret for the last weeks. But today is the day to reveal it. My new project. Our new project. For the rest of our lives ☺